Everytime it Rains...

I think I’m being sentimental right now. You know that there are things that remind you of someone or precious memories you once had. It could be a song, a movie, a book by certain author, the smell of cheap or expensive perfume, anything! For me, it’s always the rain that reminds me of him. He likes it when it rains. He loves walking in the rain, getting wet, and he doesn’t care whether he’d catch cold or not. He just loves it. "It’s like walking in a giant tub, too bad it’s forbidden to walk in the rain naked", he once said. I’m in my hometown now for my summer break and I went to a café overlooking a golf field with my friends days ago. It was raining when we were there and oh it was so beautiful to see the rain pouring down the golf field. I could see every drop of it. And I thought of him, knowing that he likes rain so much. It rains a lot in here and the feeling of missing him grows stronger and stronger every day. I wish one day, I could share the moment of walking in the rain with him. Tell me, how are you doing, my old friend?

Turn, Turn, Turn

There is a time for everything
A time to be born and a time to die
A time to plant and a time to uproot
A time to kill and a time to heal
A time to tear down and a time to build
A time to weep and a time to laugh
A time to mourn and a time to dance
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather them
A time to embrace and a time to refrain
A time to search and a time to give up
A time to keep and a time to throw away
A time to tear and a time to mend
A time to be silent and a time to speak
A time to love and a time to hate
A time for war and a time for peace
What profit is there for a man from all his toils?
Finally, I considered the task GOD gave to the humans. He made everything fitting in its time, but he also set eternity in their hearts, although man is not able to embrace the work of God from the beginning to the end.

inspired by a song by The Byrds, which is adapted from The Book of Ecclesiastes 3:1-11

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

The Trouble With Love is

I’ve never found a song so true like this one. It’s Kelly Clarkson’s 'The Trouble with Love Is' from Love Actually movie soundtrack, check out the lyrics :
Love can be a many splendored thing Can't deny the joy it brings A dozen roses Diamond rings Dreams for sale And fairy tales It’ll make you hear a symphony And you just want the world to see But like a drug that makes you blind It’ll fool you every time
LOOOOVVVEEEEE what a word, eh? It's the only thing that makes you forget everything and the only thing that keeps appearing on your mind is the face of the person you fall in love with. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I couldn't study! cos he's always on my mind. I couldn't wait to see him, I couldn't wait for the day to go by so I could see his loving face, talk to him and feel his warm embrace.
Now I was a once a fool it’s true I played the game by all the rules But now my world’s a deeper blue I’m sadder but I’m wiser too I swore I’d never love again I swore my heart would never mend Said love wasn’t worth the pain But then I hear it call my name
When love is calling, no matter how shattered you are, you pick up your broken pieces on the floor and rush to where it calls you. Because you know, you need it no matter how many times your heart've been broken, no matter how many tears you cry. As love comes and goes, you grow wiser and you keep searching for a better love because you know, you're don't deserve to experience the hurt you had in your past relationship. Anymore.
Every time I turn around I think I’ve got it all figured out My heart keeps callin And I keep on fallin Over and over again This sad story always ends the same Me standin' in the pouring rain It seems no matter what I do It tears my heart in two
I have a friend who is hurt by the girls he loved. He couldn’t believe in love and loving, but I told him, love deserves all the risks you face in having it, in maintaining it, and when you lose it one day why should you be afraid that you won’t feel how to love again? It's something that you can't escape from because deep down inside, although you feel that you'd never love again, eventually you would surrender to the beauty of it. Nobody should ever stop loving and you can never stop yourself from loving someone and being loved. You know the risk and whatever hurt it brings, you know it would never stop you.
The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie It's stronger then your pride The trouble with love is It doesn’t care how fast you fall And you can’t refuse the call See you’ve got no say at all
Stronger that your pride, yup, that's love. Love, according to Deep Purple, conquers all. Love, according to Eagles, keeps you alive even when you’re hungry (no matter how nonsense the lyrics is). Love, according to Wet Wet Wet, is all around you. Love plays an important role in life, you just can't run away from that. Without it, life has no meaning. The most deadly thing in the world is when someone feels that he/she’s not loved by anybody. No matter how hard it is to find someone you love, no matter how sad it is to have an unrequited love, no matter how hurt you feel inside when your heart is broken, don’t ever be afraid in loving. Fall in and out of love. Never give up loving, cos love is the most beautiful thing in the world and you deserve to have it, you deserve to be loved. Love and you’ll be loved in return. After all, LOVE, according to the Beatles, is all you need. And you know it's true.

Fate and Luck

"I don't think the world is something created coincidentally, Hans Thomas." "Aku tak berpikir bahwa dunia merupakan sebuah hal yang kebetulan, Hans Thomas." ~The Solitaire Mystery
"I think luck is the main factor that counts the most to someone's success." Norah Jones
I was reading The Solitaire Mystery by Jostein Gaarder and the sentences made me stopped reading and thought that, everything in this world happens for a reason. Norah Jones' words made me pull a face. I met a friend who got the highest mark for his mid-test and said that it was a beginner’s luck. He thinks just like what Jones does. Why wouldn’t they think that all the achievement they got is because they work hard on it? He must have studied hard, that’s why he deserved to have the highest mark. Why wouldn’t he think like that? I feel that I have a different point of view with them. Luck and fate, they’re different. Some people still believe that luck plays an important role in their lives. Jones may believe in luck, but I don't. I don't even believe all things that goes along with it too, e.g lucky charm. I don't believe that luck is responsible for what happens to me. Things I achieved is determined by my efforts, my ability. I believe in fate, things that happened to me are fated to happen. Everything that happens in this world is meant to happen. For example, there is this British who placed all his savings on a roulette game and won. Now, would you think it’s just luck or he’s meant to win? Some ppl may find it confusing to differentiate between luck and fate but I think luck doesn't play any roles in my life. When I was accepted at UNPAR, some ppl often said,'Oh you're so lucky to be accepted, I heard the bar exam is a killer.' The bar exam is a killer but I think I deserve to be accepted, I've worked so hard on it. It meant to happen to me. You can’t say things that you don’t have because you’re out of luck. You don’t have it because it’s not meant to happen to you. Cherish the things you have, for you deserve to have it and whatever things that don’t come to your want, you need to know that it’s meant for your own good. Someone once said this to me,”I’m grateful to the things God has given me, and for the things I lost, I never had regrets on it. Instead, I’m grateful I had it, for Lord gave me the chance to have it, even if it only happened for such short period of time.”Be grateful for the things you have, things you lost, and things you don’t have.